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date: Monday, August 31, 2009
time:4:42 PM
this was all yesterday.

to shahila:
you are my beloved cousin.
you are crazy, funny, loving and caring cousin
i never had. (:




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date: Saturday, August 29, 2009
time:3:15 PM
ehq hi. so long never update. lazy ahh,very. not only lazy to update bt got a lot of work to do. haha. well, i had a lot of fun chatting with yan,didil nn wan today. haha. yan bole tahan fun ahh. haha. bt wan paling fun. haha. i tink wad aini say is true. i can forget the past when im with wan and aidil,friend. haha. the truth is i can forget about hym for a while only. haha. aiyo. i miss hym siaa. i want him back. bt i have to go on. aiyo. well, this qns keep asking me, 'is syafiq st8 with yas''is he att', aiyo. idk wad to do. i always saw hym with yas or other girl. i cant accept it. aiyo. k laah gtg bb.

in my dream,
you're mine.
in real life,
you're not.
you're just a dream.
well, to tell you the truth,
i miss the past
of you and me.
everywhere i go
theres only you on my mind.
i swear
i miss you so much.
the word you say to me,
i still remember.
one and only.
ily.

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date: Saturday, August 22, 2009
time:12:48 PM
sudah berkali-kali aku cuba untuk melupakanmu,
namun, aku tidak bisa, aku gagal.
perasaan cinta dan rindu padamu
semakin menggunung, tiada henti.
310709, kali yang terakhir aku bergurau denganmu.
aku rindu akan kenangan manis kita berdua.
aku rindu akan senyumanmu, ketawamu
dan belaian kasih sayangmu.
setiap waktu, setiap saat,
di mana aku berada,
hanya wajahmu yang aku terbayang.
aku merasakan kehadiranmu di sisiku
pabila aku merenungkan kenangan masa lalu.
aku inginkan dirimu kembali.
apakah kau masih ingat lagi frasa yang kau pernah berikan padaku ?
"sayang my syafiqah"(sms)
itulah frasa yang kau sebutkan.
kau pernah mengatakan bahwa
aku adalah satu-satunya di hatimu
dan kau beruntung mendapatkan diriku.
pada saat itu juga perasaan kasih sayang padamu
tinggi dari langit.
kau juga pernah menginginkan
cinta yang baru kita bina ini
kekal berpanjangan.
dan kau juga pernah menginginkan
cinta kita jujur dan ihklas.
dan ya,
aku jujur dan ihklas menyintaimu.
tapi kini kau inginkan kita putus gara-gara keilapanku.
kesilapan yang kecil bukan besar tapi kau membesarkannya.
aku hanya mengatakan bahwa kau telah berubah
tapi kau tidak boleh menerimanya.
berkali-kali aku minta maaf
kau tidak menjawabnya hingga malam.
malam itu, aku meminta maaf sekali lagi.
malah jawaban yang kau berikan amat menyakitkan hatiku.
aku cuba menahan lukas yang telah dilukai oleh kata-katamu.
aku bertanya lagi.
kau pun menjawab. kau minta putus. kau marah padaku.
hatiku terguris dengan kata-katamu itu.
aku menangis. aku merayu padamu, tidak mahu putus.
kau mengatakan ini adalah keputusanmu yang terahkir.
aku menangis, tangisanku semakin teruk.
aku berterima kasih padamu buat segala-galanya.
030809, 2nd mth anvrsry.
kali terakhir aku bersamamu.

i want you back !

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date: Wednesday, August 19, 2009
time:5:44 PM
todae i was late for skewl again.
this is my second tyme late. so i have detention for 2 hours. aiyo.. want to noe how i was late for skewl ? well, the story goes lyke this...

i woke up early tis morning. getting ready to skewl. take my bag nn den took some money from my mum nn i went out at 6.40 am. still early. i reached at the bus stop nn wait for my cousin to come.
she was late. so boring tat i have to wait for her very long. irritating siaa. haha. nehmind. den she reached at the bus stop at 6.5+ am . nn the bus was late. agaknye ahh, lupe kejap. haha. den after tat she said she saw her makcik. makcik ehq ? dunno ahh. den ask me if i want to tompang her makcik or naek bus. den i say tompang ahh. senang siket. haha. den dunno ahh after tis. forget kejap. den we decided to skip reading period. so we walked to skewl. we went to the west park. den blk namirah. naek atas tingkat 14 dudok2 kejap. waste tyme. den a few min later turon tangga dary tingkat 14. cool kan. agak penat ahh . dary tingkat 14 turon tangga.taaq pakaiy lift. haha. den we walked to skewl. bt we took the longest wae which is go to gek poh. haha. den we reached skewl at 8.10 am . haha.
nn tats how the story goes. haha.
when i gt in the class, my classmate kecoh siaa . they kacao2 me kate aiyo lambat nn wadever laah. den... blahblahblah.. forget ahh. den it was recess tyme. i teman aini pegy library do hmwk. not library laah bt outside library. we chit-chat. talking bout our kenangan wif our dearest ex. haha. she show me the mcg tat she want to sned to her dearest ex bt she did not send. den blahblahblah ahh. i talked a lot ahh. i tell her i miss my dearest ex alot. i miss his smile, laughters, voice, everytink. haha. den i tell her i could feel his touch, the presence in hym whenever i was tinking bout the suhwyt memories. haha. den go in class den.. den ... blahblahblah.. lupe. after skewl i went to my cousin class. dudok2 ampaiy detention. haha. i regret siaa for coming late. bcoz of tis, i didnt attend rugby. boring siaa detention. i want RUGBY, RUGBY ! aiyo ! den after detention go home strgth. gt nothing to do nn i was alone juz now. boring you noe tat.

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date: Tuesday, August 18, 2009
time:9:18 PM
hey hey hey !
been lazy to update blog ahh. malas !
well, everytink is normal. macam biase je. go to school wif my cousin, shahila, of course. den assemble at parade square. take national anthem nn blahblahblah. den go in class, blajar. macam paham je. haha. ferst period was math. boring, very boring. i dun understand siaa. i tink i was left behind ahh for this lesson. yea , i was left behind. i was lose as i was doing my SEL project. den science the next period. i used to hate science bt now not anymore. i find it interesting. yea. haha. den recess nn den blahblahblah. forget . haha.
den blahblahblah.. aperh ehq ?
after skewl, after self study, i decided to go home. bt den aini call me to join her nn lagi dua org tu laah pih chua chu kang. at ferst i dun want to go. den i tink twice. mcm qerek ahh agaknye. daah bagos org ajak taaq kan naaq tolak. haha. den follow aini, wansherman nn aidil pendek go lot 1. gerek ! haha. being fren wif the sec 3 gerek siaa. haha. den blahblahblah ahh. i laugh a lot. haha. den makan LJS . share nan aini. haha. den ... den... erm.. taaq ingat. lupe. haha.
den alek umah nn wadever ahh. lupe. haha.
ehq i tink i want to watch jihan ahh.
toodles !

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date: Friday, August 07, 2009
time:3:03 PM
argh...
i cant stop tinking of hym. i want hym baqq.

everytime there is sumone talked to me bout you, i feel uncomfortable. i feel lyke i miss you so much.

well,
you wouldn't know ,
i were or was crying every single nyte tinking of you.
i tried to erase you from my life
bt i cant.
i dunno why. mayb its bcoz i love you so much.

you owaez saw me
smiling, laughing,
bt you wouldn't know
behind every smile , laugh
i had.

whenever i saw you
i tried to ignore you
bt i cant.
the more love i had for you.
i miss you.

ppl say
life must go on.
so i'll try to go on with my life.
bt, i was stuck.
i cant forget you.

selagi rindu mengusik kalbu
kutahu ku dambakan dirimu.

masihkah ada lagi ruang untuk aku menyintaimu
atau pun hatimu sudaah tertutup dan sudaah dimiliki orang ?

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date: Wednesday, August 05, 2009
time:9:25 PM

its over !
its the end of my relationship between me and hym. i cant believe it ! euu kate euu takot kalo i mintak brk. skarang aperh nie ? euu yq mintak. wth ! aiyoyo. juz becoz i tell euu, euu daah berubah, euu naaq marah2 pulak. mcg taaq eply , kol pon taaq ans.
i really2 dunno wad to sae to euu. well,
thnx for everytink,
thnx for coming into my life,
thnx for stealing my heart,
thnx for being nice, caring and loving towards me,
nn thnx for knowing euu better.
i cant live without euu. bt i will try to forget euu nn go on with my life without euu. criously cnt ahh.
i cant forget euu , i dunno why . bt den, after recess , there's three of ur fren mcg me. nn i cant take it siaa when steam mcg me tat wae. im starting to hate euu. i dunno wad have euu said to ur fren bout me. i really2 hate euu. taaq tau aperh yg euu daah bilang drg. behh sume salah kn aku ahh. wth! aku taaq salah pon kene. cibai! prangai baek berubah ahh. otak kolot siaa. umor daah berape prangai mcm budak2 siaa. taaq sangke aku . sori bbual kasar.

tukar topic laen ahh. boring siaa nie topic . haha. well , todae i met my cousin nn his fren, acipz. haha. well, i find acipz ok ahh. haha. he quite shy ahh when he met me. haha. nn my cousin, aan keeps disturbing hym. haha. well bole tahan fun ahh lpk nan drq. bt lepak satu jam je. haha.

ehq, juz now the makcik jual keropok dtg ahh. i was alone in my room mcging acipz, nn my mum tgh dudok2 kat living room. den "assalammualaikum" said the makcik. haha. she was wearing black tudong, baju kaler green, nn she jual selendang ahh kali nie. haha. pandai ahh. haha. lucky, taaq derh pape yq terjadi. haha. den i continued mcg acipz ahh.
he express his feeling toward me. acipz tell me he got a crush on me. aiyo. haha, i noe already, aan daah bilang. haha. well can say tat acipz caring towards me. bt criously i dun have any feeling towards hym now. haha. well , tomorrow makan breakfast kat mac wif aini. haha.
toodles !

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